04SEPTEMBER2012
Its the date me and my family will never forget.
Dady left us, on this day. Forever.
Its already been a month plus, almost 2months. But each time I flashed back, its as if it all happened seconds ago.
Me, my brother & Meimei (my sister) had been trying so hard to put this behind us & just move on. Well we seems to be happy right? Sometimes it feels like we're trying too hard, sometimes its really just us moving on, sometimes its too fake, our laughter. I'm not quite sure anymore.
But Alhamdulillah, everything is heading to the ok path.
I miss him.
I felt so bad for not listening to him, i felt so bad for not being there, i felt so bad for not making him proud anymore like i used to when i was younger, i felt so bad for being his bad rebellious babygirl.
I remember i was his trophy. He was always proud of me. I was a lot like him.
I remember i used to depend a lot on him that even my friends said i was a spoilt dady's babygirl.
I remember i told dady i will never wanna learn how to drive a car because i was too afraid. Dady talk me into it several times, but i'd always said something like : ''No worries, im just going to depend on you and my future husband for this driving thing''.
But now that he's gone, I've been doing everything on my own. I've been going around settling his things on my own. And honestly, it's tiring. But no matter how much I wanna give up, I keep telling myself that I can do this, I have to do this, He want me to do this.
Daddy, dont worry. Im keeping our promise. i'll always will.
Im fat now, so you dont have to worry about me having my gastric again. Im real fine because Aa's mom's been feeding me a lot. And look, i've grown up! Im not that shy shy cry baby that you used to know. My tears are all dried up & im even more brave than before.
You took a piece of my heart & gone forever.
Even though its just a piece, but its a real big one. But whatever it is, we still love you. We always will dady.
You're always gonna be our hero.
Rest In Peace dady, i love you.
