Assalamualaikum 1010

10.10.2015
The wait is finally over.

I had experienced a few pain few days before that. Went to the hospital but the doctor said I was not ready, yet. So me and Aa went back home. In that week, he took me to the park twice a day. Walked around the jogging trails, up and down the hill, my god I was heavy and it was exhausting. But Aa insisted because the doctor encourage it. It would be easier for me to deliver.
So on that special day, I woke up super early due to the pain I was having. I can barely stand up because of the pain. Aa had to carry me to the bathroom and shower me. I was bleeding a bit. We went straight to the hospital at about 8am. My contraction was still bearable at that time, I was in 3cm. My water haven't broke. And when I was attended by the doctor, she broke my water, which was actually a 'missed management' said the senior doctor. It was a little bit chaotic because there's been disagreement and a little argument between the senior doctor and the doctor who was attending me, But whatever it is, me and my baby is safe now so I'm not gonna share that part.
So after my water was broke, that's when the contractions came in rapidly. God it was painful. Too pain that I was puking and shaking. I puked all over the bed and some machines and to one of the nurse. But thank god the nurse was very understanding she even helped me changed and cleaned me up a bit. I did had a few naps in between while we're waiting for me to reach 10cm. Falling asleep makes it less painful for me. But they won't encourage it. They kept waking me up.
I was contracting and hungry. I didn't have anything the night before and I also skipped breakfast since I was already slightly bleeding waking up. I was really really hungry. Besides being in pain, all I could think of at that moment was to get something to eat. But luck was not on my side, Aa missed the only chance where he could actually come into the labour room. He did filled in the form which allowed the husbands to be in the room before their wives deliver. He was waiting for the nurse to call out his name. But when it was his turn, he was outside the ward waiting for both me and his parents. When he came back in, I was already preparing to deliver.
It was about 12noon when I was in my 10cm. Couldn't remember much. I was busy pushing. I was out of breath and desperately thirsty.
And then 1257noon. There he is. At 3.46kg.
The nurse put him on my chest. He was all healthy and already kicking! He was kicking his way up so he could reach my face. And when the nurse took him away from me to clean him up, he cried. His cry is different with the other babies, his is like high note crying, very high & thin. Must have taken after his father, Aa's voice. Aa can sing high notes pretty well.
After what went like a while, I can finally be back into my ward with my baby. When I was transfering from the delivery room to my bed ward, I saw Aa's parents, sister in law, my mom & my siblings all waiting for me. My hijab was a mess and I still had my puke stains on my face and hands. But despite that, I was smiling. I was relief to see their faces. Aa said he was proud to see the smile on my face. He expect that I would have cry. But believe me, during the push battles, I did not shed a tear at all *proud* *will you guys give me a round of an applause?* Well, I did not cry but I did beg the doctor to just give me c-section because I couldn't stand the pain & I was also out of breath. But the nurse there encouraged me and convinced me that I'm strong enough to pull this through so yes I did it yayyy *applause please*
I was given the privilege to be in a Class B bed ward. It was a 2 beds ward, lucky me I was the only one there. Giving me just the privacy I need with my families.
When I was all settled down, Aa went to carry him and whisper the call to prayer (Azan) to his ear. That look on Aa's face when he carried him was magically proud & surreal.
I was admitted only a night because my wounds heal fast. When we came back home on the 11th, the baby was having a mild fever. Was admitted again in the hospital in the middle of the night because of his fever and he was having a slight jaundice as well.
We were at the hospital for 3 days. Alhamdulillah his jaundice recovered fast and his fever was gone too.
Finally came back home on the 14th. Ahhh home sweet home.
We decided to named him Muhammad Azan Daniyal.
Azan was inspired by Aa's name Azhar. And Daniyal was inspired by my late father's name Daniel.
His name also means Call for the prayer, Intelligent, A Prophet of Allah.

So Assalamualaikum Muhammad Azan Daniyal.
And hello confinement to me.

9months

February 2015
I had gained a lot of weight during the first 2 months of my marriage life. This is bad. I am absolutely blaming Aa for this. For taking such a good care of me and feeding me lots and lots of food. Plus I am staying with the inlaws, with all the delicious heavy meals prepared by the beloved mother inlaw. Oh myy I gained more that 5kgs in just 2months.
So I decided to start working out, going back to the old routine. But my colleagues & Aa insisted me on taking a pregnancy test. Just to be sure before I start working out again. I haven't got any signs yet, but I do feel a constant small pain in my uterus. But I thought it was some sort of a pre-period cramp thing going on.
I mean, me and Aa weren't really expecting, nor did we not not expecting. We were both just regularly going with the flow. We did made a plan beforehand, but we thought nahhh. We'll just move one step at a time. What happens, happens.
And then boom! The results were confusing. 2 lines it is. But the second line was too faint to even see it. So I asked my bestfriend Dreanna for help since she's got a lot of pregnant friends, she might know how to deal with this. And guess what, she took me to the clinic straight away. This is so surreal. I was at the clinic nervous as heck and she was trying to make pointless jokes to calm me down. This is why I love you girlfriend.
The doctor took a long time to examined me. It was positive for sure. But they couldn't find the little one. But I am officially pregnant. Maybe its too early to show. But hey little one, Assalamualaikum. Eventho I can't see you yet, I am more than happy to know you're finally here.

10th February 2015
Today meets the day where it's Aa's first hello to the baby! He wasn't in town during the checkup because of his work. I went to fetch him at the terminal and the first thing he did was touching my tummy and giving it a kiss. I am starting to enjoy this kind of attention hihi.
Dear little one: Stay safe, we love you.

19th February 2015
I am starting to feel nausea. But this just makes me even happier. Because its a sign that he's really here.
And oh I told Nani about this good news today. She was thrilled! Alhamdulillah.

27th February 2015
I am being such an emotional freak these days. And the pain I was having in my uterus earlier is becoming more constant. But despite all of these, Aa is becoming so supportive and sweet lately. I was only watching a movie scene where the actor was eating a kitkat and I just simply blurted out that I haven't had one for quite a time. Next thing I know he went to buy some for me. I am so lucky! Alhamdulillah. 

02nd March 2015
It's my birthday. I think the worse. Because he and my friends weren't around. The only good to it is that the little one is here with me.

11th March 2015
Me and Aa first checkup together. And we finally see the little one and hear the little one's heartbeat. Aa was dumbfounded! And I am in 9weeks already!
Dear little one: Alhamdulillah you're strong and healthy. Stay strong ok? We love you.

18th March 2015 (10weeks)
I can finally see the little one's heart and tiny hand. Too bad Aa couldn't see because men aren't allowed into the ward. But still, Alhamdulillah.

24th March 2015 (11weeks)
I've been losing so much weight lately. Practically back to the weight I was before I was married. Morning sickness had been so strong lately. Literally puke everything I ate.
Dear little one: I am so sorry. I'll try my best to eat despite these. Stay healthy my baby.

9th April 2015 (13weeks)
Fell down 2 days ago, Alhamdulillah everything's fine. Just the ankle, sprained. Thank god Aa was here and had been taking care of me.
Dear little one: I promised to be extra careful next time. Stay strong love.

05th May 2015 (17weeks)
My mom finally knows about the little one. Alhamdulillah she was happy too just like the inlaws. And mom even made my favorite mengkuang roll. I had been craving that for ages! And it was Aa first try of the chinese cuisine and he loves it! Now I know the recipe, hopefully I can make one at the inlaws anytime soon.

13th May 2015 (18weeks)
I am constantly tired these days. Emotionally and physically. People are starting to annoy me in almost every way. I am constantly pissed and frowning. Is it me being intolerant or they are really downright annoying or maybe I can blame it on the hormones?
Well good news is the doctor said the little one will be moving anytime soon! I am so excited! I hope the first move would be when Aa is here. He really don't wanna miss moments like this. Poor guy.

20th May 2015 (19weeks)
My tummy is getting bigger and harder, plus the back pain I'm having, sometimes its hard to even move around. Alhamdulillah finally got the chance to go massage early this morning and now I'm feeling so much better. I am getting more obvious, weights gained Alhamdulillah. And emotionals are often uncontrollable lately. I cried 3 days ago just by watching an art performance by the Russian. Trust me, I don't even know why. And I cried so hard lastnight just because I know I have to wake up super early today. This is so getting out of hand I'm being such an idiot. But Alhamdulillah Aa is being so understanding trying his best to take care of me when he's around. Oh and yesterday we both went surveying for baby's stuff. Everything is so cute I want to buy it right away! But its still early. Patience Ayra! Even Aa got so hyped looking at all those baby's clothes.

27th May 2015 (20weeks)
Alhamdulillah I'm halfway through my pregnancy. Woo! So far still no baby movement. I can't wait for the baby's squirm. I've got so much to do but my laziness is taking over me. I haven't even start my pregnancy pictures, not even one! Anyway, I have this weirdest dream last week. This pregnancy sure does bring a lot of crazy dreams to me but this one is different. I've never dream of food in my lifetime ever, as far as I remember. And last week I dreamt about dim sum. Woke up from that dream, told mama, my mother in law about it. She said maybe the baby wants it. So Aa brought me to dim sum yesterday hihi. And then grocery! My favorite errands to run with the hubby because I get to buy whatever I want. Thankyou sayang! So far Aa is being super understanding about everything I'm going through. He used to sleep so soundly at night that not even earthquakes could wake him up. But now, just a slight movement from me wanting to go to the toilet in the middle of the night, he would wake up immediately and assist me to the toilet. He's changed a lot within these 5months of our marriage. I hope everything will always be good for us, Aamiin.
And dear little one: Are you ready to move around yet? Your ayah wants to feel you move so badly. We love you little D!

18th June 2015 (23weeks)
Alhamdulillah I get to live another Ramadhan. Too bad I won't be able to fast this year. Went check up 2 days ago and the doctor said my blood level is too low, Astaghfirullah. I was so sad to hear that. Have to start readjusting my meals. Veges, fruits, meats! No more sodas, coffee or milo chocolate boohoo.
Dear little one: Alhamdulillah me and ayah finally feel you moved! I promise I'll try to eat better. Hang in there sayang!

25th July 2015 (28weeks)
Selamat Hari Raya! Alhamdulillah my first raya as a wife and the husband is around for the week! And this raya brings so many good happy memories. Thankyou sayang for being here and making everything come true.
Dear little one: This time, next year it will be your first raya. We love you.

18th August 2015 (32weeks)
Quit my job so I could rest more. Besides, I'm already in my last trimester. And this month is going to be a good month. Both girlfriends are coming back. I am so excited!

1st October 2015 (38weeks)
Here I am. Still pregnant. My due date is on the 11 of october . It's 10more days. I am scared, but at the same time beyond excited to meet this little one.
This pregnancy journey bring me & Aa to a whole new phase of life which we never thought we would have experience it.
Though it has a lot of of its discomfort moments;
Like the morning sickness in my first & third trimester. That was not just morning sickness since it's happening all day!
And the back pain and the constant pee break. 'Sayang, I need to pee.' I think I said that more than I said iloveyou to Aa.
And the worst would be the heartburn every night. It's too irritating that I can only sleep an hour or two in a sitting position. Aa would sometimes wakeup in the middle of the night in shock because I would either sleep in a sitting position beside the bed or even opposite him. Like imagine waking up in the dark seeing a figure sitting opposite you. Lucky he did not have any heart attack. But he did let out a girly shriek a few times. It was funny though.
Despite the irritating moments, there's a lot of heartwarming, sweet ones too.
Throughout this 9months, Aa had been such a charming, understanding superhero. Yes, my superhero. Who tries his very best to fulfill all of my needs. He bathe me when I'm at my weakest. He helped me cut my toe nails. Put on my sandals. Constantly showering me with attention and care. Constantly telling me that I'm beautiful even when I look like a big fat balloon. I feel like a bloated balloon.
I am really lucky. For having him. Alhamdulillah.
Thankyou sayang.
And now let us wait for the arrival of little D!
Bismillahirahmanirahim.