In remembrance of you

September 4th.
This is the date I'll always remember.
I remember writing a post about you 2 years ago, a month after you left.
And today here I am writing about you all over again.
As a matter of fact, I believe I will never run out of things to write about you. Well, ofcourse never, you had been present in my life for a good 19years. And another 2 years in my heart and forever as long as mine is still beating.
Ever heard of Alter Bridge's In Loving Memory?

I swear everytime this song came up, there is not a single time that I never cry. In fact, I just cried a few seconds ago listening to it again. This song reminds me a lot about you. It's as if this song were made exactly for us.
Yes its been two whole years but sometimes it still hurts. For the reason that I still feel you, your presence, sometimes guiding me. Many said I resemble a lot of you. What not? We basically share the same favorite songs, same favorite movies, same hobbies, same talents.
Even one of the reason behind my Islam name Ayra Daniesya, is the combination of your name and my birth name Daniel + Sherlyn = Daniesya.
I used to be so depending on you. So clingy.  I'd give you a call whenever I met the slightest obstacles. I would tell and share all my problems to you. From frienship to relationship advices to life lessons. And most of the serious conversations took place in the car. We could just sit in the car for hours outside the school, outside a friend's house before I'm off to a sleepover, just talking about everything.
I remember our last talk was a topic about converting. I was dating A'a for 2 years back then. I asked you what do you think about it. You had always been a free thinker. You were so open minded about it. Lucky me. You told me you trust him enough to let him take care of me for the rest of my life. But its me the one you're not quite sure of. You were afraid that I would regret because I used to be the rebellious wild one at heart. But then you mention you would support me despite everything that would happen. But you knew that I would not regret about it because you knew he is a good guy. You told me you like him because you can actually see that he loves me deeply, and that he gave you a first good impression by being a gentleman to asked for your permission to bring me out on a first date. As cliche as it sound, it really happened. I remember getting ready upstairs, he told me he was on his way, and when I came down, he was there at the living room shaking hands with you asking you for a permission. And the look on your face was indescribably proud.
I could never thank you enough for showing so much support in my life. You have done so much.
In spite of the fact that you're gone, you still mean the world to me.
You are forever my guardian angel. You are forever my hero.
You are the best dad one princess could ever have. I love you dad, always.